Custom Module

HTML Inserted Here

Weblog

Wednesday, 08 July 2009

  • Dad

    My dad was instant messaging me today and told me about his trip to the cardiologist.
    Doctor told him that he has something called Aortic Valve Stenosis and that he will need to have open heart surgery some time in the next year or two.
    I guess that means that the valve in his heart is weak and needs to be replaced which I'm sure is a pretty standard surgery these days.
    The problem is that my dad is VERY hospital phobic and has said that he would rather not get it done and die when it takes him than to go thru the surgery.
    UGH.
    I seriously hope he changes his tune about this. I know it's scary but I really don't want to be thinking about losing my dad. I am not ready for it. He will be 70 in December. I'll stick the grand kids on the job of reminding him of all the reasons he has to stick around if he gets stubborn about this.


Saturday, 04 July 2009

  • I give up. Seriously.
    I think my kids hate me.
    I have gotten into it BIG time with both of my teen girls this weekend. Almost physically, too.
    They both hate my guts.
    I'll never get through them both being moody and stubborn and horrible until they are gone
    I wish I could just leave sometimes.
    I can never win......I can never be the good guy.
    and my already self bashed ego can't take any more hatred.
    I'm so sad!!
    It just makes me cry......I'm not allowed to be human as a mom I guess.
    I'm supposed to  be able to take it all right?
    I'm not bullet proof.
    How will I ever get thru this?
    Am I just over emotional because of being sick?
    I find myself saying the most horrible childish hateful things and I  cant seem to stop them from coming out sometimes.
    It comes from feeling hurt........because they hurt my feelings
    they reject me.
    And that hurts!
    I guess as a mom I am supposed to be able to suck that up and not let it affect me?
    :((


Thursday, 21 May 2009

Monday, 23 March 2009

  • Currently
    Strobelite Seduction
    By Kaskade
    Move For Me
    see related

    Anyone 4 a Quickie?

    Hi guys, just checking in.
    I'm doing okay. Went back to the eye dr for my pre-op and they decided to postpone March 27th surgery. They said the improvement I have had over the last month has been substantial so they don't want to mess with anything until they see how much better my eyes will get on their own. Probably from quitting smoking and the surgery finally showing some results! They will check me again in 6 weeks. The thyroid is as low as it's ever been. FUN!
    Aside from that, just working on paying bills. It's been an adjustment having hubby home all the time now. It's nice having help with the kids. He's been working on getting his new venture up and running with his friend and so far it's going pretty good.
    Hope you're all well! Thank God it's finally spring huh?
    Love, Ker

Tuesday, 03 March 2009

  • Insert Catchy Title Here

    So much going on around here lately it's sort of hard to blog about.
    I don't really know where to start.
    Hubby is starting up his own business with a friend. That's been kind of scary and confusing.
    He's making me crazy being home all the time . I told him, It's just not natural to me to have my butt grabbed all day.
    I'll need time to adjust. My usual routine/groove is all messed up and that makes me kind of cranky.
    Him getting a job working for a different dealership isn't looking good. The market is so flooded.
    We've had this friend of our daughter's staying here.
    He's 16 years old and his mom doesn't want him (????) He has fallen through the cracks of CPS and I haven't quite figured out how to handle the situation. We really don't have the room or income to afford him staying here but I don't want to be heartless either. Something tells me I am not getting the entire story. Do you EVER get the entire story with a 16 year old??
    Did I mention I am having another surgery to my right eye on March 27th?
    Maybe third times a charm. We shall see.
    Hope you're all well
    love, Ker


chasnfireflies

  • Visit chasnfireflies's Xanga Site
    • Name: Kerry
    • Birthday: 9/20/1971
    • Gender: Female
    • Member Since: 3/10/2006

About Me

  • I'm a 37 year old mom of 4. Married 17 years so be assured I have a sense of humor. I live with an auto immune illness called Graves disease. Some days I talk about that, other days I just like to bounce thoughts off of other people. Come on in. I don't bite.....hard anyway ;)

Subscriptions

[no subscriptions]

Pulse